Below are extracts from letters written to a Dutch friend with whom Janina lived first in Palestine and later in Germany. The letters describe her impressions of the Mother and about her life experience in the Ashram.

30.12.1957

During Darshan this morning She showed me what is a kind of knack in the process of surrender. I have nothing to give, ever. But every time my act of self- giving is sufficiently strong She gives and acts in me and through me. It is like a rhythm: a movement in me to Her - a movement of Her in me. And the moment I think of giving or want to give, the contact is lost. It is a real school exercise - a school of Divine Living it is here. I often feel it so. "Here, my child, now this has to be learned, go on and report tomorrow." I am practising it now too. Giving myself as completely as I can to Her and I feel Her Love flowing through me to you. She told me also this morning that the way is just to go on and on with more and more self-giving - nothing else. Just more and more. Oh, there is such a great gratitude in me - how can I express it?


Soon my helper will come, so now I want to prepare myself inwardly. After a time I shall probably be able to write about it with humour....


(Ref: A Captive of Her Love, P: 16-17)

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